It didn’t start out like this, I only saw you from a
distance. We had similar interests it just started with a picture together and
a phone number. How did it end up so far? We were only friends staying in
contact over little things that we had shared. When did it change? It feels
like it was over night when I thought what if there was something more, we were
just friends. You were just a girl, a beautiful girl but we were just friends.
Gorgeous golden hair, stunning body but it didn’t matter we only shared a few
days as friends. I could see the stars in your eyes the kindness in your smile
the love in your heart and just like that it was something else. What was this
feeling? I’ve never had it before but I thought we were just friends. I came to
see you, it was just a movie why didn’t I want to leave when it was over? We
were just staying in contact but why did it feel like it was different? You
felt the same way I thought when did it happen, we barely know each other we
gave it a shot, I haven’t been happier it was what I wanted but I never thought
it would happen. We tried our best but then you were gone what did I do, should
have I acted differently? It was the first time I’ve felt like this I didn’t
know what I was doing, I thought it could work but I was wrong and now we were
nothing at all. With time I healed but I still felt the same. We weren’t even
friends when did this happen I thought I knew you but I guess I was wrong. Life
went on and we were nothing but a day passed and I thought of you I wanted to
know how you were doing I missed my friend. I just wanted to know if you were
ok, we started to be friends again this is what I need, we were friends just
like before. Talking of interests what we wanted with our lives. We were
friends we shared our emotions I saw your smile again it warmed my heart but I was
scared to start to feel. I didn’t wat it to end like it did again, I just
wanted a friend. It was just a movie it was just a glance it was only a smile a
hug goodbye, I had the feeling what was it? I felt it before why now? We are
only friends I just wanted to make sure you were doing well. Why this, why now,
why again? I could only think what happened last time, I didn’t want this. It couldn’t
be, why, why, why did my hear decide I wanted this? I dint tell you I didn’t want
to change what we were; only friends. We share our feeling we shared what we’ve
been through and it happened again. We gave it another try we were going good,
when did it change? What did I do? Was it the distance? Was it me? What was wrong?
Just like before you were gone I had a hole in the same place as before, I lost
my friend. I may have found out what love was then but it only hurt me. I tried
to replace you with someone close, it didn’t work. It wasn’t the same, she wasn’t
you. I missed you I needed you, why did you push me away? I thought we could
work I guess I was wrong again and now time goes on I start to heal but not
like before there was still something missing. It was you this time that
started it as a friend, you shared a picture from years before, it was the
fires picture we had together and just like before we were talking again. This time
it was different I was wary about my feeling I tried to close myself off but in
turn did the opposite to you. We opened up more learned things we’ve never said
our loud and this time it was different, it was compassion that I felt. It was
love that you gave and it was what I needed at the time. I was going through
hell all alone but you were there an angle of light to guide my way. You healed
a part of me that wasn’t getting fixed, you gave me your heart and I did the
same. We helped each other this time I knew I was sure that this was love I felt
and just like that we gave it a chance. We were stronger this time we shared
music, we shared a dance, we shared a kiss and I wanted more. I wanted to love
you forever, I gave you a part of me. I was whole again, I gave you a charm it
was all I had left of a life before. It was a promise to be forever. It was
something you accepted whole heartedly, it was what we wanted I was happy for
the first time in a long time. It was lovely it was something new it was what I
needed but you left. It hurt more than you know, you may have said you wanted
me to stay but I know I couldn’t do that and continue on. It was the hardest
thing I’ve ever done, I had support form a new friend but he wasn’t you he didn’t
know what to do. He didn’t know how to help but he tried and I thanked him for
what he did. I still loved you I told you this but hope was the biggest it ever
was. Why did you leave, why didn’t you say something to me? I could have
changed but I should have known after the first two tries, I shouldn’t have let
it happen but you know third times the charm but people don’t change do they? Why
did I try, why was I weak? We will never know but just know I always loved you
no matter what happened, I still do. I know you have a life and family of your
own but I still know you were my first love. You showed me what love was and I don’t
think I would change that. You helped me be who I am today even if you aren’t here
now, you helped get me through the tough time I had. You helped me change for
the better. You helped me achieve something I didn’t think would happen. You are
still the angle that showed me light, you guided me through the tunnel. I still
love you, it’s been four years since we talked but know I still think of you
often. I still know I love you in some way but I’ve grown, I’ve moved on. I still
thank you for what you did. It was six years ago when we met and I wouldn’t have
changed a thing, you were what I needed at the time you showed me another life,
you helped me get through hell. I’ll always love you in some way, you touched
my heart and I hope I did the same. I hope you’re doing well, we may never meet
again but if we do I hope we can share stories we gained throughout the years. Goodbye
yesterday, hello tomorrow, I’m here for you ill beat it with hear and make my
own path.
